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In the Now: May 2015

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Loving: SPRING!! It's finally here and full of sunshine and gorgeous flowers (like above!) and cherry blossom selfies! Woo hoo!! 

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Watching: Grey's Anatomy. Yep, I'm super late to this party, and I'm only in season 5! Stupid Grey's is way more compelling than I thought it would be, but, to be fair, we had gotten off to a bad start. (Back in college, my bffl and I would get chased out of our dorm lounge on Thursday nights by girls swarming to check in to Seattle-Grace. NOT COOL.) I have trouble sticking with shows, so making it to S5 is pretty impressive, but George is my favorite, so I'm not sure I'll make it much further waahhh.

Listening to: "Electric Feel" by MGMT. Thank you, Mark and Willow, for un-ruining it! ("Electric Feel" was in heavy rotation while I was working on the last chapter of my MA thesis ughhh.)

Nin-jazzzz

Nin-jazzzz

Reading: I bought Do Less after spotting it at Urban Outfitters and convincing myself that it doesn't count as self-help! (Shhh...) As you can tell from my budget posts, I have way too much stuff (despite less impulse buys), and I need to do some serious cleaning-out. (Not just of clothes, but of dumb things like cupcake liners and dried out markers. Like, srsly.) I just started it this morning and am already super intrigued, thanks to lines like "[L]iving your unlived life comes from beating resistance." WHOA. And also, "If you add up all the things in your home that you think you will use for a someday activity, you'll see that it would be impossible to use them all. You'll also see that if you packed your life with all these someday activities, you'd have no time or space for the things you love right now." For someone who seriously struggles to be in the moment and feels a constant need to be occupied (especially by planning for a future that never comes exactly as I've planned), this concept is fairly mind-blowing.

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Contemplating: A summer capsule wardrobe or 30 outfits in 30 days challenge. Mainly because I get stuck in clothing ruts and wear the same few things all the time (which includes leggings as pants eek). BORING, and not making great use of my whole closet. The winter capsule definitely got me to utilize more of my closet and jewelry box than I normally would have, and also showed me exactly what I reach for (and what I don't and should thus part with--inadvertently going hand-in-hand with the minimalism theme!).

Working on:  Rolling with the punches. It has been a particularly insane few weeks, from dealing with bank issues (UGH ADULTHOOD), to calling my doctor's office and CVS a million times about a prescription, to squeezing in driving practice whenever possible, to encountering a giant bee in my bedroom. (I can now say that I'm 100% more terrified of bees than of driving! And also that I could probably outrun Usain Bolt if the starting gun let bees loose!) My stress level has been through the roof, but what can you do but just deal with the pain-in-the-ass things that happen? No wallowing, just a sigh of acknowledgement because that's life. This is a huge change from the me that, a few years ago, would lose it over the slightest mishap.

In the Now: April 2015

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Loving: My second Rocksbox set! It arrived last week, and I've already worn two of the pieces multiple times! (Those two pieces happen to be from my Wish List, while I am meh about the third piece, which my stylist picked out. I guess I really know my taste in jewelry! haha) What I like about Rocksbox, besides a jewelry surprise showing up at my door, is the ability to try things outside my comfort zone without having to buy them. Like this gorge statement necklace. I love it, but it's so much bigger and bolder than my usual jewelry. So now I can try it out and see how I feel before committing! *holla hands emoji*

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Watching: Still Castle re-runs, lol. They are just perfect background noise for me. Oh, and Pitch Perfect. Speaking of....

Listening to: The Bellas' Finals performance from Pitch Perfect. It's just. so. good. Seems like everybody's got a price, I wonder how they sleep at niiiight.... But my jam on repeat now (and over the last few months!) is "The Man in Me" by Bob Dylan. Which is funny because I'm so not into Dylan, but I love this song, probably because it sounds like The Band musically (I realize that it very well could be The Band, but I have not been able to confirm this online) and was featured in HIMYM (when Marshall is flying around in his nightgown)!

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Reading: Fangirl by Rainbow Rowell... for the past month LOL. Someday I'll finish a book for fun! I can so relate to college freshmen Cath, the protagonist, who much prefers hiding in her dorm room to socializing. That was totally me! 

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Working on: Shaking a sense of apathy. I've been feeling pretty meh about most things lately (including my bank account, which is most definitely NOT something one should feel meh about!). It's possible that my new medication is alleviating my anxiety a little too much. Or perhaps I'm finally cracking up after 8 months of a four-hour-a-day Septa commute. Or I'm annoyed that exposure therapy is pushing me to do things I don't want to do. (Regardless, I did complete my first assignment, which was to drive BY MYSELF!) Who knows? 

In the Now: March 2015

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Loving: The fact that the arrival of March puts us that.much.closer to SPRING! I'm so over cold, gray days. I need sunshine and warmth (and flowers! and skirts!)!

Planning for: A trip to Chicago next week! I'm going to visit my beloved galpal Timmi, and also to attend the Hay House Writers' Workshop! I can't believe March 20 is already almost here--I've got to get my posing game on point for the inevitable Bean photo shoot! (Fun Fact: I had no idea what the Bean was the first time I went to Chicago, back in 2012!)

Playing: Giant Boulder of Death. This iPhone game is absolutely perfect for my long (and recently, very frustrating) commute. All you do is guide a giant boulder down a mountain, and you get to crush things in your path, ranging from innocent hikers, to yetis, to houses and barns. It's very satisfying after 90 minutes on a bus, and the yodeling music and "Game oooover!" crack me up too. Good stuff.

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Watching: Castle. For some reason, a show about crime and murder makes really comforting background noise for me. (Alarming?!) Like, I know enough to know what's going on without actually knowing what's going on in any individual episode. It doesn't hurt that Stana Katic is so gorge, and I want her perfect hair and flawless makeup always. 

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Inspired by: Anne and her blog In Residence. Not only is her blog always bright and full of great pictures, but she totally seems to love being a mom and wife and balancing that with her writing. As I've gotten older, I've become more jaded and afraid of the idea of marriage/family--it just seems so overwhelming. Anne's blog, then, is very comforting, as she seems to be thriving in it all. Preach!

In the Now: January 2015

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Loving: This little Reptar-esque companion. He's so cute and squishy and fun! Just looking at him brightens my day, AND it's nice to have something tactile to play with as I dig my way through work e-mails. Best $.99 I could have spent at Target! (I can't seem to find him on their website, but in store, I spotted him in an endcap in the toy section, along with ladybugs and some other squishable animals.)

Intrigued by: The idea of a capsule collection. I've been following along with Katie's fall capsule over at Style on Target, and I'm curious if I could handle limiting my wardrobe like that (maybe for only two months though!). I srsly need a reason to stop buying winter clothes, as well as motivation to go through my winter closet and part with things I'm not wearing and/or not excited about. I'm also pretty good at doing daily creative projects with a deadline, so I think I could get into this capsule thing. I've done Project 365 (twice!) and 100 Happy Days, so I'm curious if a capsule would be equally fun and creatively challenging. It's not like there's much to get excited about in the dead of winter anyway, besides not falling on ice and not getting hypothermia!

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Listening to: 70s funk. I've long loved Kool and the Gang, so I have no idea why I didn't already own these songs. (In case you were wondering, I can hit that note on "and be a bad piano-playing maaaaaaan" in "Hollywood Swinging." *sassy Z snap*) Oh and the drumming on "Lady Marmalade" is so perfect, "you could set your watch to that cat!" (as Pops would say). And don't even get me started on "Car Wash." It's really been a struggle to NOT start dancing in my seat while listening to these jams on the train.

In the Now: December 2014

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Loving: the Christmas season. Christmas really seems to lose some magic when you don't have weeks off from school to soak it all in, but I've been enjoying all the lights and decorations and red Starbucks cups and general mirth. I even put a tiny light-up tree on my desk at work! WHO AM I?

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Beauty product I'm loving: Hurraw Moon Balm. I ordered it on a whim last week because my lips have been super painfully chapped and not even my go-to lip products (Murad Pomegranate lip protector and Fresh Sugar lip treatment) had helped. Luckily, Moon Balm turned out to be amazing. It's thick and luxurious and smells like cookies! (COOKIES, people!) After just a few days, my lips are almost fully healed, and I am in love.

 

Listening to: A fine combination of "Rollout" by Ludacris ("What you got in that ROOM?") and Glee's cover of "Some Nights" by fun. Oh and "Lovin', Touchin', Squeezin'" on repeat on the el. Nbd.

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Reading: NO SELF-HELP BOOKS. That's legit one of my December goals, ha. Instead, I'm halfheartedly reading Bossypants, which I started poolside in Florida last month (an ideal setting!). I like Tina Fey, but I've found Bossypants to be kind of meh so far. I wonder if I'll finish it, because I'm really great at getting halfway through a book and never picking it up again. #Englishmajorfail

"Your aura is so PURPLE!!"

"Your aura is so PURPLE!!"

Working on: Not absorbing other people's energy. I am a pretty sensitive, introverted person, so I tend to catch other people's feelings like a cold. And that's on a normal day. Being around them in the throes of holiday stress? Suddenly, I'm living in a powder keg and giving off sparks. So I've been researching some techniques to avoid taking on other people's emotions as if they're my own. Hello, protective bubble!

TRUTH. Merry Christmas!

TRUTH. Merry Christmas!

In the Now: November 2014

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Loving: My closet. Growing up, I had a bedroom closet in name only. Its doors were off-track, and I couldn't reach the lone shelf, so it became filled with stuff I never used (like baby shoes and old stuffed animals wut), while my actual clothes were kept in the basement (which made no sense). Luckily, when my dad got my room re-painted this summer, he also had the contractor lower the shelf and put in a legit rod and TA-DA! A functional closet! Oh happyyyy dayyyyy.

<3 <3 <3

<3 <3 <3

Watching: I can't believe I'm saying this, but Dancing with the Stars. I'm totally Team Sadie and Mark. She is precious, and he's so sweet with her. Aww. Not to mention their flawless dance skills, although I'm jealous of pretty much everyone on the show's dancing. I love to dance, but I've only taken one dance class in my life, and that was because I thought it would fulfill my undergrad art requirement. (Spoiler: it didn't.)

 

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Word.

Listening to: Lorde, "Team." On repeat. It's so soothing and perfectly suited to going through tons of data at work! Who knew? Oh, and Dire Straits' "Money for Nothing" because that opening riff is perfection. (That's the way you do it, you play the gee-tar on the MTV.)

 

Reading: Still Women Who Love Too Much lol. I've been sleeping on the train lately instead of reading. #priorities

 

Working on: Trying not to buy everything in sight! I had exceeded my monthly shopping budget by November 5! Eek! Luckily, I'm back in the black again thanks to some returns, but I've been seriously falling in love with everything I see. IT'S TERRIBLE. 

 

Also,  an update on last month's budget: I had to return the (gorge) Chloe and Isabel stacking rings because they were too big, and I couldn't get them resized. Sigh. Luckily, I was able to exchange them for a lovely necklace, and I can't wait for it to arrive! Btw my friend Jess, Chloe and Isabel merchandiser extraordinaire, is amazing, not to mention hilarious and someone you immediately want to be best friends with, so I highly recommend picking up some holiday gifts from her if you're in the market for jewels!

In the Now: October 2014

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Loving: Fall, which is weird because I am so not a fall person. I love long summer days and warm sunshine and spring flowers. I hate pumpkin things and Halloween and wet leaves (curse you, slippery rail season!!). But this year, the coziness of fall and its beautiful foliage have drawn me in. I even went on a hayride and roasted marshmallows! WHO AM I?! 

Reading: I do try to hide the cover of this one on the train, but I'm loving it. Srsly. Purple underlining everywhere. Women Who Love Too Much was a recommendation of my amazing therapist, and she did not lead me astray.  Like Silently Seduced, WWLTM goes far beyond its dramalicious title and spells out subtle but debilitating issues caused by family dysfunction--which, Norwood argues, is most greatly impacted by SECRECY:  "It is the degree of secrecy--the inability to talk about the problems--rather than their severity, that defines both how dysfunctional a family becomes and how severely its members are damaged" (6-7).  WHAT? Mind=blown. There is some serious food for thought in this book, which has also been a pretty quick read so far. 

Working on: Purge-tober. I have a ridiculous amount of stuff, and I can't ignore it, now that I'm back home in the land of few shelves and closets. The fact that my dad and I have been working on Ruth Soukup's clutter challenge has also forced me to get real on my wardrobe. (I'm good at regularly parting with stuff I've lost interest in, but I cling to pretty things, even if I can't remember the last time I wore them.) So far, I've taken about 8 bags to the consignment shops, and the leftovers are destined to be donated. I tend to get very emotionally attached to things, so it feels really good to give some of them the heave ho. "Let go of all that isn't serving you," right? :)


Happy October! What are you guys into this month?