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High Five for Friday: June 14

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Let’s see what brought the sparkle this week!

  • On Saturday, I had a long overdue haircut (which you got a play-by-play of if you follow me on IG!)! I swear I got some length taken off! 😂 It takes a good hour of sitting under the dryer to get my hair... somewhat dry (#thickhairprobs), but I really relish the time to chill and read trashy magazines! My hairstylist asked me what kind of magazines I’d like to read, and I was like, “The dumber, the better!” 😂👍🏻
New hair, who dis?

New hair, who dis?

  • I also went on an accidental shopping spree! 😬 There’s just too many good stores near the salon!

Okay, the face mask was actually something I ordered two weeks ago, but it arrived last  Friday, so yolo. And I definitely didn’t realize that what I thought was a little trinket dish was actually an ashtray! Oops! But it’s super cute and obviously on brand with my moon-and-stars obsession, so, perfect! It makes a fine ring dish, I must say!

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Other initial reactions: The cute Empress sticker went right on my laptop, I love the simplicity of the little Virgo medallion, and the Ohaii lip gloss is pretty thick and great!

  • I saw some other fun sign-related thangs that I miraculously didn’t buy! I’m a Virgo, duh, and Timmi is an Aries. Apparently, those two signs are totally incompatible, but STARS BE DAMNED—we’ve been going strong since 2001, baby! 👯‍♀️
Okay, but Timmi only does ride shotgun tho….

Okay, but Timmi only does ride shotgun tho….

I COUGHED NOW I’M DEAD #tooreal

I COUGHED NOW I’M DEAD #tooreal

  • On Sunday, I hung out at Kristin’s and was the fifth wheel for dinner (since her parents and bf were there too). When I said that, though, Kristin’s mom—sweet angel that she is—replied, “Oh, you’re family!” just very matter-of-factly! I could have cried! How adorable! I do regularly beat Kristin and her bf’s ears about Nicky Hopkins, and what is family for if not to semi-tolerate your weird interests?! 😂😂

  • Lastly, this quote got through to me more than encouragement about being positive seems to. All the bright colors probably helped too!
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break up with your negativity, i’m bored 😑

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Hope you have a great weekend! xo

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High Five for Friday: June 7

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Let’s see what brought the sparkle this week!

  • Last Friday marked THREE YEARS with my lil’ babydoll car! (Can you even believeeee?! Especially if you’ve been around since the exposure therapy days!) And on Saturday, I drove to my second state ever: Delaware! HOW EXCITING, RIGHT?! 😂😂 Okay, yes, Delaware really isn’t far at all (this trip was like 50 minutes total), but there’s something about the idea of driving to a DIFFERENT STATE that feels very momentous, haha. Bonus that we were going to a grad party, so I got to be all dolled up! (Although this dress obviously qualifies as Secret Pajamas™️ because you know that’s how I roll.)

I would link to my dress and sandals, but they are both sooo old! Like, from 2013 and 2015 respectively!

I would link to my dress and sandals, but they are both sooo old! Like, from 2013 and 2015 respectively!

  • On Sunday, I had a bit of a “treat yo self” trip to Lush! Timmi and I stopped there when I was in Chicago, and I picked up the Sleepy Face cleansing bar, which I really like. But it’s a pretty small bar, so I wanted to see what else Lush had to offer. Enter Ultrabland and (a sample of) Let the Good Times Roll!

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Ultrabland is a cleansing cream, so it feels very luxurious and is also really moisturizing… like, to the point that I don’t have use a separate moisturizer. Anything that allows me to be lazy is 💯. Let the Good Times Roll is a bit odd—it has a Play-Doh-like consistency until you mix it with water. But it smells amazing (kind of like cake?!), and it’s exfoliating, so I like the idea of using it intermittently. And they gave me quite a generous sample, so thanks, ladies of Lush!

  • Oh yeah, another car breakthrough: I went to the car wash on Tuesday after putting it off for months! 👏🏻 Does the car wash give anyone else anxiety? I mean, there’s usually a crowd, and you have to squeeze your car into the line, and people are yelling at you and telling you where to go, and ultimately I JUST FEEL OUT OF CONTROL AND I DON’T LIKE IT. But I survived! Pro tip: Go on a Tuesday at noon!

  • Buckle up for a musical geek-out moment! You might not know Nicky Hopkins by name, but you probably know his gorgeous piano-playing on songs like “Angie,” “She’s a Rainbow,” and “You Are So Beautiful.” I am a total nerd who loves finding out which session musicians played on songs, and Nicky is my fave of faves. So I’m currently reading this book!

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I could never quite understand why Nicky, with his immense talent, was only a session man. I had heard he’d had health issues (possibly Crohn’s Disease, which was a definite YOKES back in the ‘60s), but the book has put it all into perspective: when Nicky was 19, his health issues landed him in the hospital, were he was bedridden for almost TWO YEARS! He had 14 surgeries in that time! Like, Keith Richards was amazed he even survived… KEITH RICHARDS!! (And how is he still alive?!) Uh yeah, now I can see why being a session musician and not traveling with a band would have been super ideal!

 

  • Lastly, here’s the Positively Present illustration I picked for my phone background this month:

I seriously love how her images are always so bright and cheery! It’s almost enough to make the idea of change palatable! 😂😂

Hope you have a great weekend! xo

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High Five for Friday: May 31

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This week was much better than last week (WHEW), and having that extra day off for the holiday was splendid! That seriously brought the sparkle!

  • On Saturday, I made yet another stop at Ulta (SEND HELP) and then dropped by Kristin’s for Caturday night with Schitt’s Creek + this guy! (Sharkey is really the star of To Sparkle Punch, let’s be real.)

just casually touching me with his tail 😭😭

just casually touching me with his tail 😭😭

  • On Sunday, I got to pick up this lovely Om bracelet after yoga! (As I mentioned in my Budget post, I tried to buy it last week but didn’t have enough cash oops.) I think it’s a fine addition to my “arm party”! (Is that still a thing??)

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  • I also got to spend some time outside over the weekend, first with an impromptu nature walk through our neighborhood, and then with some writing time!

What is this?? 😍 I need to start walking around with a field guide!

What is this?? 😍 I need to start walking around with a field guide!

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  • The caption says it all! 😂 YAY (almost) SUMMER!

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This was my get-up for the ol’ saltines-and-soup Target run after I randomly got sick on Monday. (This also explains the Gatorade above. #blessed)

  • I had been flitting around the house tidying things up on Monday, but in an attempt to slow down after getting sick, I parked myself on the couch and watched some Sex Education. I finished season one awhile ago, but I’m still in love with Connor Swindells… and Maeve’s hair. 😍😍

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Hope you have a great weekend! xo

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High Five for Friday: May 24

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True confessions: this has not been a very sparkly week, friends. A lot got stirred up in therapy on Saturday, and it kind of sent me spiraling. To the point that I was walking around in an utter daze and having very dark thoughts… which only added to my angst as I was like, “AH! WHAT IS GOING ON? I THOUGHT I HAD A HANDLE ON THIS!!”

Luckily, this intense, emotional period only lasted about three days.

I’m starting to think that, at least for me, as much as my tendency toward dark, suicidal thoughts can go into a sort of “remission” as I develop other coping skills, because suicide-as-a-way-out is how I’ve coped in the past, my mind sometimes leaps back there if I become very scared and overwhelmed. So I’m trying not to beat myself up too much for it, or wring my hands like “WHY IS THIS HAPPENING WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME AHHHH.” I felt a lot all at once, I really hate feeling, and I had a brief period of darkness. That progression makes sense. THANK GOD I have enough awareness now to know that dark thoughts can and will pull me under very quickly, but that they’re ultimately just thoughts—I don’t have to listen to them. And my emotions will stabilize in time. Stormy days pass.

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ANYWAY, here are a few specific things that got me through:

 

  • Connection. Text with a friend about the “Lido Shuffle” and Tim Tams. (True story 😂) Go to therapy. Help a friend with a lip balm emergency. (Unfortunately, said friend had taken a nap by the time I got to her house with the lip balm, but she woke up while I was there chatting with her bf, so I got an “Are you in my house??” text—a hilarious first.) All of these things helped me to feel infinitely less alone in my whirling thoughts. And when I have darker thoughts, I’m usually feeling very alone, so this was clutch.

 

  • Go to yoga. Although I go to yoga every Sunday, I was not psyched this week because we had a sub, and I always feel weird about that when I’m in an emotionally raw state. (I feel so awkward crying in class when I don’t really know the teacher!) So I tried to “warn” her about this possibility beforehand, and she reassured me that it was totally fine, welcome even—setting the tone for a really great, calming class.

  • Pet an animal friend. This actually happened pre-therapy meltdown, but the video sure made me smile afterwards! This lil guy was even friendlier than the cat I saw a few weeks ago! What a cutie! He literally ran up to me, rubbed up on me, rolled around, and then bolted, ignoring everyone else in the parking lot! Considering the emotional meltdown I proceeded to have in therapy, it got me wondering if he sensed that I needed him, almost like how those trained dogs can recognize when their owner is about to have a seizure. In any case, there’s like 80% chance I’m gonna come home with a cat one of these days! Or that my therapist, who has never seen any of these cats, is making notes like, “Ok, Jess is seeing cats now…” 😂😂
  • Journaling and therapy. You guys know these are just a *chef’s kiss* as far as I’m concerned! An hour of journaling was honestly the only thing that calmed me down on Saturday night! My writing was, at times, more negative and spiraly than I would have liked, but for the most part, it helped me to make sense of my feelings and, as a result, I felt calmer and less crazy! And even though therapy is what started this whole episode, and led to me being very withdrawn in Tuesday’s session, when we met again on Thursday, I was finally able to speak to the vulnerability under all the darkness and reflexive pushing-away. Considering this all played out with my male therapist (who thankfully has the patience of a saint), it was a real breakthrough for me.


  • A small treat. I’ve gotten much more disciplined with my shopping habits over the past five years of budget posts, so I was shocked by how impulsive I was over the weekend—it was like the pleasure centers in my brain were screaming to be fed! WILD. As a result, I couldn’t talk myself out of a few unnecessary purchases, one of which was a candle at the yoga studio. However, lighting my candle has given me something to look forward to every day, and the lemon scent has helped to ground me in the present. (Plus, the whole experience convinced me to steer clear of stores for the rest of the week!)
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  • BONUS SIXTH THING: The triumphant return of Self-Care Nails! Not only is it just fun to have pretty nails, but it takes a good 30-45 minutes for me to paint my nails, and you have to have some degree of presence and focus to do it without being sloppy. So it was almost like a meditative act, in the sense that it pulled me out of my thoughts for a bit.
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So that’s how I got through a rough week. What do you do in these stormy times?

 

Hope you have a great weekend! xo

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High Five for Friday: May 17

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TGIF! Let’s see what brought the sparkle! ✨

  • On Friday night, Russell (Inspector Gadget) came over to jam with Pops (they both play guitar), and I got roped into the action! Who cares that I can barely hold the ol’ emergency bass, let alone play it! 😂🤟🏻 But we all played a song of Russell’s together, and I actually contributed a few notes! What a delight! It seems like you don’t have to do a lot to add something with the bass… which is perfect when you have no idea what you’re doing! 😂
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  • I addressed the “ergonomics” part of my wrist issue with some cute desk accessories from Amazon! (Definitely cheaper than X-rays and physical therapy!)
Ergonomics, but make it fashion:  Wrist support and mouse pad  (“Crystal-2”) |  Wireless mouse

Ergonomics, but make it fashion: Wrist support and mouse pad (“Crystal-2”) | Wireless mouse

wrist support  (“floral leaves”)

wrist support (“floral leaves”)

And what do you know—MY WRIST DOESN’T HURT ANYMORE! It’s almost like my doctor knows what she’s talking about! 😂😂 These changes + avoiding weight-bearing yoga poses seem to have been the key, just like she said!

  • On Monday night, I came home to an empty house and took full advantage, watching old Days in my comfy cat pjs! (I’ve finally resumed the original WilSon storyline… and already, multiple people have been kidnapped and held at gunpoint! Aka a normal day in Salem.)
HI WILL. #restingcryface

HI WILL. #restingcryface

  • Speaking of Days, even though I barely know Ciara as a character, I follow Victoria Konefal on IG, and she posted this total gem this week:
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I tend to choose numbness, so when I do feel, it’s often overwhelming, and I’m not always sure where the feelings are coming from. Hence finding this little chart helpful! Knowing my assorted inner children definitely helps with this too. When I’m feeling something that doesn’t necessarily make sense to the 32-year-old me, I can usually trace it back to an inner child who’s scared or not getting her needs met. Which is pretty darn cool to discover, honestly. 💖

  • Lastly, who’s suffering through watching Game of Thrones with me? UGH, SUNDAY’S EPISODE. I have no problem with that turn of events, but it could have been 1000x better. Ever since GoT moved past the books, it’s felt maddeningly plot-driven to me. ANYWAY, if you too are struggling with season 8, you might enjoy this GENIUS retooling of Sunday’s ep as an ‘80s movie. Actually, if you’ve never watched GoT but don’t mind some spoilers (that you’ve probably already heard anyway), you might also enjoy this because it’s set to “Love Is a Battlefield” and features tons of ridiculously longing looks. 💯

Hope you have a great weekend! xo

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High Five for Friday: May 10

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Let’s see what brought the sparkle this week!

  • On Friday night, I went to ecstatic dance for the first time in months! It wasn’t totally ecstatic, though…  I know I’ve been going the 🎶conceal don’t feel🎶 route lately, so I guess I needed a safe space to let myself feel some things, and that’s what happened. There’s this one song that the facilitator often plays, and it just cracked me wide open. I cried some perfect mascara tears and got to release some of the fears I’d been pushing down. 💖

 

  • I went to Kristin’s on Saturday, and look who jumped directly into my lap!
#BLESSED

#BLESSED

As if that weren’t exciting enough, Kristin’s bf recently went to the Instruments of Rock ‘n Roll exhibit at the MET and had a million pictures to show us, so major classic rock geeking out ensued. 👌🏻

  • On the topic of music, this week’s totally random musical deep dive has been Van Halen, thanks to Pops’s total guitarist crush on Eddie Van Halen. “Dance the Night Away” has never been one of my faves, but that might have changed now that I’ve listened to it like 87 times this week! Especially this live version:
  • It’s been an excellent week for flower creeping! Look at these beauties I found on Monday morning! What a delightful way to start the week! 😍
  • So my wrist started bothering me out of nowhere about a month ago. I’ve had tendinitis in the past, but it didn’t feel quite like that and has been getting increasingly painful, so I was starting to worry that it was something more serious (like carpal tunnel EEK). On top of that, I was getting increasingly uneasy about this weird skin discoloration/rash that’s been on my arm for literally a year. DOUBLE EEK. Well, I finally made a doctor’s appointment this week, and she told me that my wrist issue is likely just overuse (typing, yoga with my frail little arms, etc.), and my rash is not a big deal at all. (I actually correctly Google diagnosed it, so just call me Meredith Grey!) THANK GOODNESS!! I hate making doctor’s appointments for things that aren’t capital I Issues, but it feels pretty good to have some peace of mind now.
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Hope you have a great weekend!

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High Five For Friday: May 3

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Let’s see what brought the sparkle this week!

  • I don’t know what got into me on Saturday, but I was craving some nature in my life, so after therapy, I went to a nearby state park and just wandered around! I hoped to see some flowers, which didn’t pan out, BUT I did get to hang out with some horses! I really loved this brown pony with the white face. I kept a safe distance, so as to not spook them (they were just chilling in a field), but this guy kept inching closer and closer to me! 😍😭
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  • Also, because I know you’ve all been DYING for a fanny pack update (😂😂):
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  • Here’s another animal friend I made this week:
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I had just gotten to therapy on Tuesday and was standing outside my car, texting Kristin assorted rants about GoT (insert her eye-roll here), when I saw a CAT’S reflection in my car window! What the what?! He totally came out of nowhere and just ran right up to me and started rubbing up on my ankles! What a cute smooshy gingy boi!! Sadly, he was not interested in coming to therapy with me, but I did see him hanging out in a sunny garden when I was walking back to my car afterwards, so he was clearly living his best life!

  • Here’s the Positively Present illustration that I chose as my May phone background! I love this one so much—I think it’s the first one I saved! As I mentioned in my Rebirthday post, I struggle so so much with what I’m doing (or not doing) at 32. So this picture is a great reminder. I need all the reassurance I can get that I’m okay and right where I’m supposed to be!
  • Lastly, if you’re looking to create a chill vibe in your life, may I suggest the Petit Biscuit mix on YouTube? So I follow the gorgeous and adorable Priya Blackburn on Instagram (she played Freddie’s sister Kash in Bohemian Rhapsody), and she used a Petit Biscuit song in one of her IG Stories last week, and I loved its mellow electronic sound, so now I’m hooked! I find his music especially nice to play in the background as I go through my nighttime routine. Apparently, this genre of music is called “tropical house.” Who knew that was a.) a thing and b.) my jam?!

Hope you have a great weekend! xo

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High Five for Friday: April 26

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What put the sparkle into this week?!

  • Let’s start with what is clearly the most exciting thing that will ever happen to me on social media (aside from chatting with soap actors obvs): being regrammed by A CAT CAFE!! 😮😻

THANK MEW 😻😽

THANK MEW 😻😽

Yes, I bought a shirt from the Windy Kitty Cat Cafe when Timmi and I were there because HOW COULD I NOT?! That’s only the best name ever, and the logo riffing on the Chicago flag? GENIUS.

 

  • Friday was a rough anxiety day for me. Trying to do things differently than I normally would led to an avalanche of anxiety—surprise! As much as I love using music to self-soothe, it doesn’t always work when I’m really anxious. Chatter seems better in these situations, so enter the Freddie and Alyssa Show podcast! I’ve mentioned them before on here—he’s on Days, she’s his fiancee, and they talk a lot about ways to create a happy life. I also follow them on IG, and I find Alyssa’s IG Stories to be particularly helpful when I’m down—she’s always so bubbly and cheerful! She also survived a horrific car accident a few years ago—like, she had to relearn how to walk and almost lost an eye—so I really admire her ability to be so positive!

 

  • Kristin and I joked about doing a “Cobra Kai and crystals” day on Saturday, and whaddya know?

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We only watched the first ep and a half before being derailed by GOT, but it was pretty good! With my love of The Karate Kid, I miiiight be the target audience, but Kristin liked it too!

 

  • If you celebrate Easter or Passover, I hope you had a wonderful day last week! It was absolutely gorgeous here, sunny and 60s, so I was living my best cat-in-a-sunbeam life! (Actually, “cat-adjacent-to-a-sunbeam” because sunburn, yo.)

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We went to Easter brunch at some family friends’ house, and they had THE MOST BEAUTIFUL PURPLE TULIPS I’VE EVER SEEN. I seriously made a beeline for them. If there aren’t cat friends available, I guess flower friends will do! ☺️

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  • Lastly, check out this cute shirt I found at Target a few weeks ago! All I really want to wear anymore are moon/mystical-related clothes, so this is perfect, haha!

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Hope you have a great weekend! xo

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High Five for Friday: April 19

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Let’s see what brought the sparkle this week!

  • Saturday was totally gorgeous here. Sunny and ‘70s! Therapy + a stop at a mystical shop made for a lovely day!

 

  • On Sunday, I accidentally went a bit nuts at Five Below and ended up with this haul! Yes, it does include a fanny pack! 😬🤦🏼‍♀️ I guess I finally got one after all!
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Later on, I put on some KUWTK and had a grand old time dusting/Swiffering/tidying up my room! #lit

  • I love me a delightfully cheesy ‘80s bop, and this week, we’ve been building this city on rock n’ roll! Starship, man. I just can’t resist.

This video is a REAL TREAT. Somehow, I didn’t see dancing Abe Lincoln coming!


  • I don’t even know how I found this IG account (ok, let’s be real, it was probably via Alana, as she is a goddess of positivity!), but I love it! I just love the artist’s style and sentiment. This pic is actually my home screen background on my phone right now because I def need to accept this idea!
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All that noise keeps me quiet. 🤐

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  • I’ve been trying to insert little fun things into my life in lieu of creeping on/obsessing over social media. The current fun thing? A beloved video game of my childhood: Final Fantasy VII! (Yes, you can get it on iOS!) It’s been fun to jump into a fantasy world for a little while instead of hopping on IG or Facebook and constantly comparing myself to others. If you’ve been able cut back on social media use, how did you do it?
PUT A CAT ON IT 🙌🏻

PUT A CAT ON IT 🙌🏻

Hope you have a great weekend! xo

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High Five for Friday: April 12

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I had an absolute blast visiting Timmi in Chicago last weekend, so let’s recap some of that sparkle!✨

  • Day one combined three of my fave things: my dear Timbertoes, donuts, and cats! We pregamed with old-fashioneds at Stan’s and then headed over to the Windy Kitty Cat Cafe (best name ever?!?) for quality time with some precious kitties! So I basically died and went to heaven right off the bat!

Cherry for me, double chocolate for Timmi!

Cherry for me, double chocolate for Timmi!

This precious tuxedo kitty was trying to nurse and knead everything in sight, including me. 😭

This precious tuxedo kitty was trying to nurse and knead everything in sight, including me. 😭

Such fancy paws 😭😭

Such fancy paws 😭😭

Discovering the treat dispenser helped us to make MANY friends!

Discovering the treat dispenser helped us to make MANY friends!

  • Day two started out with a stop at a mystical shop near Timmi’s apartment. After stocking up on some books and crystals, we planned to go to the Lincoln Park Conservatory, but whoops, we got hungry, so we ended up lunching and shopping more in Andersonville instead!

💸SPOILS💸

💸SPOILS💸

That night, we met up with a few of Timmi’s friends for a belated birthday dinner and then drinks at The Violet Hour, a speakeasy in Wicker Park. Out of doors at 11 PM… and at a BAR?! WHO EVEN AM I?! (I did get a mocktail, so that’s on brand at least.) We did some tarot readings in the speakeasy with Timmi’s BALLER new Philly Tarot deck!

🎶Life of the club, arrogant like yeah🎶 Seriously, though, how hawt is Timmi in that smoking jacket? 😍

🎶Life of the club, arrogant like yeah🎶 Seriously, though, how hawt is Timmi in that smoking jacket? 😍

Yes, I got the Ten of Cheesesteaks! 😂😬

Yes, I got the Ten of Cheesesteaks! 😂😬

  • Day 3 started off with brunch with Timmi’s friends (they are seriously the nicest!), and then a few of us went to the Chicago Wolves’ game with some of her teammates. (Timmi just took up ice hockey last year, and her team recently won the championship! 🙌🏻) I used to be super into hockey, so I had a blast! Bonus that the Wolves’ goal song is “Kickstart My Heart” by none other than Motley Crue! 😂

 

 

  • Day 4 was the most beautiful weather day—60s and sunny—so we walked down to the lake for a quick tarot reading and photo shoot. 😂😂 It was so unbelievably gorgeous there!

🎶It started when we were younger, you were mine, my boooo🎶

🎶It started when we were younger, you were mine, my boooo🎶

SERIOUSLY HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE. And repping the Tigercorns, Timmi’s hockey team!

SERIOUSLY HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE. And repping the Tigercorns, Timmi’s hockey team!

Then, Timmi’s friend Nora picked us up and whisked us off to the Blackhawks’ practice facility for ice skating! (Ugh, I really wish Chicago had a different NHL team. How can a Philly girl ever not hate them for 2010?!) Timmi and Nora are such good skaters now—they can even skate BACKWARDS, which is basically magic as far as I’m concerned! They inspired me to try skating backwards too, and I was able to get a nice wiggle going! 😂 After that, it was time for one last trip to Stan’s and then back to the airport. 😭😭 On the plus side, my flight wasn’t full (!!), so I got to sit and play Final Fantasy VII in a row by myself! #blessed

🎶Never gonna give you up, never gonna let you down🎶

🎶Never gonna give you up, never gonna let you down🎶

  • What more can I say? It was such a wonderful, life-affirming, mood-boosting trip. I really needed a break from my daily life and the endless drone of paralyzing anxiety. Timmi is so good at gently showing me how fun life outside of my anxiety bubble can be.💖💖

Hope you have a great weekend! xo

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High Five for Friday: March 29

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Happy Friday! Let’s see what brought the sparkle this week!

  • I don’t often go to Trader Joe’s, but I needed some body wash and wanted to try their Tea Tree Tingle one (since I already have and love the Tea Tree Tingle Shampoo). Because everything is like $4 max, I miiight have ended up with a few other things:
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The hair mask smells AMAZING! I used it tonight, so I’m curious to see how my hair looks once it dries (in roughly 24 hours #thickhairprobs).

 

  • Okay, ‘fess up: who’s watched The Dirt on Netflix? I saw it this week, and I kind of loved it, and I kind of hate myself! 🙈 I guess music biopics are really my jam. Also, Ramsay Bolton as a curmudgeonly ‘80s rock star was everything I didn’t know I needed in my life. Oh, and I now know what a Machine Gun Kelly is, so, bonus!
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  • Speaking of music, because I know you’ve been anxiously awaiting an update on my burgeoning career as a bassist 😂:
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Pops and I went to Guitar Center over the weekend to see if we could find a smaller, lighter bass than the “emergency bass” I inherited. We were successful! …but I didn’t actually buy anything. I’m in that catch-22 situation of not being good enough to justify spending money on this interest, but I’m also not super motivated to try to learn on a bass that’s way too big and heavy for me. Oh well. We’ll see what happens!

 

  • Did anyone else love the Final Fantasy games as a kid? The main ones I played were VII and VIII (👵🏻 IT ME), but VII especially has a place in my heart. I’m a real “talk to all the townspeople and romp around on my horse” kind of video game player, but I actually beat VII! Its apocalyptic vibe always kind of freaked me out  (I was 11-12 at the time), so I haven’t revisited its music as much as some other games, but that all changed this week! Some of its songs are prettier and more soothing than I remember. I’m trying not to be too concerned that my fave one right now is called “Off the Edge of Despair”...
  • Lastly, another quote that I very much needed from the “Anxiety Therapist” IG account I mentioned last week:
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Love this reminder 💕

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Hope you have a great weekend! I’ll be in Chicago next weekend, so I’ll catch you in two weeks! xo

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High Five for Friday: March 22

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Well, this week just flew by, with lots of sparkle along the way! ✨✨

  • In this week’s edition of #selfcarenails, we have this absolute stunner by Illamasqua: Jo’Mina! 😍
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My bffl Sophie bought it at Sephora when she came to visit me in 2012, and I loved it so much that we went back later that week so I could get my own bottle! And now I’m glad I did, as Sephora no longer sells Illamasqua!

Jo’Mina fan club 😂😂 

Jo’Mina fan club 😂😂 

  • On Tuesday, I went ice skating for the first time since December! (I think having to risk life and limb among millions of kids that day traumatized me! But this time, there were only four other people, so HOORAY!) I was shocked to find that I was not very rusty, despite the months off. It was a blast and much-needed: I have to get my skating legs back before I go visit Timmi in Chicago in April!
  • Wednesday was my sixth rebirthday: the anniversary of the day I decided to go inpatient for my recurrent suicidal thoughts. This year, the first day of spring fell on the same day, and the symbolism really hit me. Moving out of the darkness and into the light. I still have a ways to go, but I’m getting there. PS- Thank you all so much for your very sweet comments on my rebirthday post! They really made my day that much sweeter! 💜

  • On Wednesday night, I went to a lovely new moon/spring equinox meditation with Alana! It’s so wild to think that, six years ago, we were just “liking each other’s pics on social media” kind of friends. And now, we chat all the time about this wild healing journey, and send each other supportive quotes, and go to moon meditations together! Thank goodness, because she is a light in my life.
  • Lastly, someone (I’m guessing Alana?) recently introduced me to this IG account. It has tons of encouraging quotes and suggestions for coping with anxiety, but I especially loved this post:
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Love this reminder for today 👏👏

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Hope you have a great weekend! xo

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High Five for Friday: March 15

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Happy Friday! Let’s see what brought the sparkle this week:

  • This week’s nail polish of choice is Essie Penny Talk. Like, WOW. 😍 I can’t even remember when I bought it, but I never used it til now because I am a FOOL! It’s absolutely gorgeous. I think I was hesitant because I expected it to be more of a copper color, but it’s really this beautifully pigmented (not frosty) metallic pink. 10/10 would recommend. 
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  • On Saturday night, I stopped by Kristin’s, and the minute I walked in, her bf started playing Jim Croce on their HomePod. 😂😂  So we ended up chatting about him for a few hours (poor Kristin!), and Rod sent me home with his Jim Croce Greatest Hits CD—what a wild Saturday night!

  • RIP Hal Blaine, session drummer extraordinaire, who died on Monday. I already knew about his stellar work on Pet Sounds but forgot that he worked pretty closely with Simon and Garfunkel too. Strangely enough, we were just talking about “America” by S&G at work last week, and it became my “play all day on repeat” song—and what do you know, it features Hal Blaine on drums! (I love analyzing songs and learning about the different session musicians and their unique styles—it even seems to calm my anxiety sometimes!)
  • It’s been a real S&G kind of week around here! I’m really feeling pretty acoustic vibes these days, I guess. Paulina and I used to play the Sounds of Silence album a lot in college, and I forgot how darn gorgeous it is! “A Most Peculiar Man”? “Leaves That Are Green”? “Kathy’s Song”? “APRIL, COME SHE WILL”?! After listening to that song all day at work on Wednesday, I came home and was basically Paul Rudd in This Is 40, yelling about Art Garfunkel—”He’s got an amazing voice!” (It’s true, though!)
  • Lastly, here’s some General Hospital feels that no one asked for: Oscar and Drew having “the talk.” I love the tender father-son relationship they’ve built over the past year, and this scene absolutely melted my heart. Billy Miller being paternal, and Garren Stitt cuddling up to him?! TOO MUCH. 😭 Bonus that this video includes Joss speaking everyone’s thoughts about Carly being pregnant: “Aren’t you kind of old to be pregnant?!?” 😂😂😂 (Carly’s “CLEARLY NOT!” is also 💯.)

Hope you have a great weekend! xo

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High Five for Friday: March 8

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Wow, Friday already?! Let’s see what brought the sparkle!

  • My dear blog mom Lisa posted this in her IG stories last week, and boy, was it a message I needed to see!
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I’ve been in a glass case of emotion lately… and I loathe having feelings… and the only thing worse than feeling feelings is letting other people see those feelings, so YEAH, I’m doing great! 😂 In all seriousness, I do know that all this ~feeling~ is ultimately a good thing, but I just don’t love being in the middle of it. I started seeing a new therapist in January (in addition to the two other therapists that was I already sporadically seeing because #yolo), and we’re sifting through some heavy stuff right now. But the new therapist is very encouraging about me feeling and expressing things (because even in therapy, feelings still freak me out!). My default reaction is to be ashamed of my feelings and want to hide them, so I definitely need to hear this new concept a million more times!

  • On Saturday, I got to meet up with my college roommate for dinner! (She’s basically Carmen Sandiego IRL—I never know where she is, or if she’s even in the US!) We ended up going to Outback because she was dumbfounded (as most people are) that I’ve never had a Bloomin’ Onion (the name of which I almost had to look up right now 🙈). Said Bloomin’ Onion was really good! I think I might have let 32 years of hype build it up too much, though, because I expected it to be mind-blowing, haha.
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  • I didn’t gush about it enough in my February budget post, but I am LOVING this cropped sweatshirt from Primark. It’s super comfy and cozy, but the cropped hem keeps it from looking too schlubby. And it’s only $7, I mean COME ON. I got it in light grey, but I can’t seem to find that online—so just know that it does come in non-neon colors!
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  • So Jim Croce has been the soundtrack of the past week! My fave jam of his (since eighth grade) has been “Operator,” but I hadn’t listened to “Bad Bad Leroy Brown” in a million years, and let me tell you, it is a BOP. I can’t get enough! I mean, there’s clapping, a jaunty chorus, and a boogie-woogie piano—what’s not to love?

Possibly the best part about this renewed interest in Jim Croce is that it prompted Pops to go, “Yeah, you know, I saw Jim Croce… he opened for Woody Allen in 1972.” Like, WUT. Pops was the coolest teenager (Led Zeppelin is among the bazillion concerts he went to in the ‘70s nbd), and he’s now the dadest dad… it’s hilarious. Also, I did the math, and Pops would have been 16 in 1972. I was def only doing homework at 16, haha!

 

  • Lastly, “Simply the Best” came on while I was waiting in line at CVS, and I was PSYCHED because all I could think of was this:

Hope you have a great weekend! xo

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High Five for Friday: March 1

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Maybe someday, my weeks won’t be so dull. Nah, that seems unlikely! 😂 Here’s what brought the sparkle this week:


  • I found this gem at the mall on Saturday! Did anyone else love Polly Pocket (like, original, choking-hazard Polly Pocket) as a kid?!
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I would have 150% bought that keychain, if it came separately! 

 

  • I also might have bought five headbands on Saturday? I was at Claire’s, embarrassingly enough, and was buying two headbands (one for a friend, I swear), but they had a “Buy 3, Get 3 free” deal. Well, twist my arm and GIVE ME ALL THE IRIDESCENT HEADBANDS YOU’VE GOT! 💃
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  • I usually don’t care about the Oscars, but my love of the Bohemian Rhapsody cast meant that I had Oscar coverage on almost all day. OY! How do people do this every year? I guess it would be easier if I didn’t like such randos—the really important people just seem to roll up like 30 minutes before the ceremony! Anyway, congrats to Rami—both for winning and for not seriously injuring himself when he fell off the stage afterward! (What the what??) 
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12 years of friendship. Bring it home kid. #oscars

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Thanks Joe, like I wasn’t already in a glass case of emotion!

 

  • Emilia Clarke was my fave Oscar lewk. Purple + shimmer? A DREAM. 😍
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  • Lastly, I’m kind of obsessed with this Frank Body lip tint I got from Ulta a few weeks ago… mainly because of the smell! It smells like coffee ice cream, and I’m way into it! 🤷🏼‍♀️
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Hope you have a great weekend! xo

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High Five for Friday: February 22

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Let’s see what brought the sparkle this week:

  • The weather was GORGEOUS on Friday—I think it even got up to 60 degrees! Not having to wear a jacket in February is The Dream (for me anyway)!

  • To celebrate the lovely weather (and because Pops was away, meaning that I didn’t have to rush right home), I went to the mall after work! I hit up Aerie and Primark, did the whole bra-fitting/trying on 80 different bras song and dance at Aerie, and ended up buying five of them! Mainly because I don’t want to have to go through all that again anytime soon! And bras were 40% off!

  • On Saturday, I went to a little ayurveda workshop at my fave local yoga studio! There were only four of us, so it was super intimate and fun! I knew a little bit about ayurveda, so it was nice to get a refresher on how we can most effectively channel our energy.

  • I had ordered this Queen shirt back around Christmas, and when it arrived, the fit was disappointing, as it often is in these situations. Like, I don’t want to order a women’s shirt because they’re so extremely fitted, but a men’s shirt can be too baggy or weirdly long (which is what happened here), so UGH. After consulting my resident seamstress Timmi and a few YouTube videos, I cropped it in about four minutes! And I’m so happy with how it turned out!!! Sorry the picture isn’t better!

Hot space, let’s go!

Hot space, let’s go!

  • Lastly, this is not inaccurate:

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Yeah, I am pretty Joce-y. Not gonna lie, though, I was disappointed I didn’t get Alexis because I do love her fashun, particularly this velour (?) kimono-esque dress. And her array of bejeweled headbands. 😂

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Hope you have a great weekend! xo

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High Five for Friday: February 15

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Let’s see what brought the sparkle this week!

  • Tapestry has been a big mood. “Home Again”? Such a sweet gem. “It’s Too Late”? Surprisingly effective at scaring off the crickets in our basement. And don’t even get me started on Telemachus, that iconic tabby on the album cover!
  • Does anyone else have a lot of feelings about the Opportunity Rover?! POOR OPPY 😭😭. I had read an article last year about how NASA was using music to try to wake Oppy up and didn’t realize that it had never responded. Or that its last message was THE SADDEST EVER. 😭💔😭
credit: Becca Farrow @rfarrowster on Twitter

credit: Becca Farrow @rfarrowster on Twitter

  • On Tuesday, I had to drive to therapy in the snow/slush/ice and was basically clutching the steering wheel the entire time. When I finally (safely, thank god) made it home, an Amazon package was waiting for me. I was like meh whatever, thinking it was just the (obviously super cool) retainer container I had ordered on Sunday. Instead, it was THIS:
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A present from my bffl! What a sweet surprise! I’ve only been bugging her about Bohemian Rhapsody since November (and she still hasn’t seen it lol). It definitely brightened up an otherwise stressful day!

  • On the topic of BoRhap, Ben Hardy posted this video of Joe Mazzello dancing after the BAFTAs, and his dorky dance moves have been giving me life? 

  • Lastly, here is something that is so incredibly dumb but just cracks me up. (Can you tell it’s been a slow week?):

The phrase “rocking my fave salamander fur” accompanied by that ridiculous dancing gif just kills me every time. (So when I saw said video of Joe Mazzello dancing, my immediate reaction was ROCK THAT SALAMANDER FUR, BAE, like any sane person.)

 


Hope you have a great weekend! xo

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High Five for Friday: February 8

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Let’s see what brought sparkle this week!

  • Oh boy, I did quite a bit of shopping! 😬 My ability to keep myself from buying things seems to cycle, like sometimes, I can go into stores and not even want anything, and then a week later, I’ll buy everything! 🙈 This week, I went to Ulta TWICE in three days! The first time, I had a gift card, so I let myself get some fun things (which anything called “Disco Kitten” certainly qualifies as!). But the second time (to get the Lanolips, which they didn’t have at the first Ulta), I had heart-eyes for everything and struggled to limit myself to just these things! (Plus an Aquis hair towel, which I’d wanted for awhile but had never seen in a store before.)
  • I promptly tried out the nail polish from the first pic (Sally Hansen Mega Strength in Persis-tint), and I LOVE it! I do wish it were a bit more opaque, but I feel like I could potentially fix that by layering it over white in the future. In any case, it’s very different from anything else I have AND the iridescent mermaid vibes are 💯! I’m glad I’ve started painting my nails regularly again because having pretty nails really does brighten my day!
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  • I also stopped by Old Navy over the weekend because this post by the lovely Lisa reminded me that I had Super Cash, and oops, I bought a few more things! Although I did get a sweater, a sweatshirt, a scarf, a purse, a card case, a set of socks, and a t-shirt for my dad for $36, so not too shabby! This is the purse I got. I wanted a roomier crossbody, and I don’t have a bag in this shape or color. Plus, it has POCKETS (which my go-to Longchamp Le Pliage simply doesn’t WAH). And how could I say no to this lavender sweatshirt with glittery purple mountains on it?! Purple mountain majesties INDEED!

 

  • After that crazy polar vortex, we got two much-needed days of gorgeous spring weather this week! I actually had doctor’s appointments on Monday and Tuesday, so I was outside more than I normally would be on a work day and got to soak up some of the 60 degree sunshine!
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  • Let’s end with another show that I started watching recently: Schitt’s Creek. It’s pretty hilarious, but it also has these very sweet moments that I just love. (I can’t deal with shows that are pure snark.) I mean, is there anything better than a heartfelt Tina Turner lip sync?!

Hope you have a great weekend! xo

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High Five for Friday: February 1

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Happy Friday! I hope y’all are keeping warm! Here’s what brought the sparkle this week: 

  • I taught yoga on Saturday and because I knew it would be in the yurt (and thus chilly), I wore my leg warmers. Not only was I super fashionable (😂), but they did in fact keep my legs warm! What a fine investment (...of like $3 at H&M a million years ago!)!
Anna socks on fleek ✌🏻 

Anna socks on fleek ✌🏻 

  • After yoga, I stopped at Target and picked up these cute things! I love Valentine’s decor in general (pink! purple! sparkles! hearts!), and these little lights have brought a bit of cheer to our living room!
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After I got home, Kristin came over and brought me (DELICIOUS) cookies and we semi-watched Bohemian Rhapsody on mute, so it was just your normal Saturday night!

 

  • I planned to get a bunch of stuff done on Sunday because I’d been gone most of Saturday, buuut then I ended not getting much sleep and feeling anxious and nauseous when I woke up. So productivity went out the window and I turned to Netflix! I had seen good reviews of the show Sex Education, so I ended up watching three episodes of it. It is rather risqué, like there’s nudity in the first two minutes, but it’s also quite funny and sweet, with some very likable characters. I love YA stuff, so following the misadventures of high schoolers is right in my wheelhouse.

 

  • I’ve really been feeling Carole King and James Taylor as a soundtrack this past week. They’re just so good! Have you listened to “You’ve Got a Friend” recently?! It’s so pretty, the harmonies are 💯, and the sentiment is so sweet!
  • Lastly, I saw this picture this week, and it’s basically a visual representation of my friendship with Timmi! Our interests don’t always overlap, but we’re always super supportive and enthusiastic about what the other is doing/into. GET YOU A FRIEND LIKE THIS. It’s the best!
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Hope you have a great weekend! xo

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High Five for Friday: January 25

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Happy Friday! 💕 Let’s see what brought the sparkle this week:

  • On Saturday, I discovered that The Virgin Suicides is on Amazon Prime Video, sooo I basically had it on a loop for the rest of the weekend! It’s super weird and dark, yes, but it’s one of those movies from my tween years that has a special place in my heart. The music is SO great, and of course there’s this stone fox:
What a doofus 😂😂  

What a doofus 😂😂  

Someone please call me and play “Hello, It’s Me” or “Alone Again, Naturally”! (The only acceptable reason to call someone tbh.)

  • On Sunday night, I went to another moon meditation (full moon this time!) with Alana and Steph. It’s so cool to just spend a few hours in this cozy little mystical shop with other likeminded people doing stuff like journaling and talking about crystals! This time, I picked out a gorgeous carnelian:
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I recently got a macro lens for my phone, and I decided to try it out on my carnelian, with some pretty cool results (even though I have no clue what I’m doing!)! I love me a stone with lots of different colors or “imperfections.”

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  • So, true confessions: even though I have two English degrees, I hate reading. I’m always starting books and never finishing them, or even better, buying books and never starting them! I think part of the problem is that reading often feels like work, like I should always be analyzing, and underlining things, and taking notes. But I’m currently 260 pages into a book I bought a few weeks ago, and I’m LOVING reading before bed! What the what?! Apparently, all I needed to do was ditch my usual self-help/psychology books and read about World War II! Who knew? 😂 I’m reading With the Old Breed by Eugene Sledge, which is partially what The Pacific was based on, and it’s really good! And, okay, I have underlined a few things because I’m a monster who can’t be stopped!

  • Maybe enjoying a book about WWII isn’t so weird for me because I did love The Things They Carried when we read it in high school. On that note, over the weekend, Russell  asked me if I’d ever read The Things They Carried, and I basically quoted the passage below because it wowed me at 17, and it’s always stuck with me. I then dug out my old copy and found my high school self’s reaction to it. As Russell said, “Deserving of the old star!”
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  • And while we’re on the topic of books, how about a book I really enjoyed but never finished? Like, say, Big Magic by Elizabeth Gilbert! I LOVED this quote from it (and probably underlined it!), and then Alana posted it on Instagram a few days ago, and it was hashtag too real—I always need this reminder!
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Hope you have a great weekend! xo

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